She has grown into a delightful, energetic, outgoing little girl.  Her zeal for life is infectious and she sees a friend in every new person she meets.  She is completely fascinated with all things ocean (especially Nemo) and cannot get enough of bubbles or balloons.  Eliana loves to help in the kitchen whenever she can, whether its whisking eggs or helping to measure ingredients.  It always makes me smile to hear her count away or sing, “Yes! (with a lisp) Jesus loves me!”  Ever since Evan came home, she has been an amazing big sister.  She loves covering him with hugs and kisses, saying “its okay!” anytime he cries.  It has overwhelmed me at times to watch her care for her baby brother so sweetly.

Happy Birthday, Eliana Faith!  Thank you for all the beautifully moments over these past two years.  I am so excited to see all God has in store for you this next year.  What a blessing and honor to be your mom!

Eliana grows more beautiful and adventurous every day!  She is on the move from the moment she wakes until bedtime.  While I’m still learning how to keep up with my gorgeous bundle of energy, I wouldn’t have it any other way!  Her zest for life and outgoing demeanor brings a fresh element of surprise to each new day.  Eliana askes for Evan first thing each morning, wanting to greet him with hugs and smiles.  We’re still teaching her how to gently love on Evan, but there is no question that she adores her little brother.  Anytime he cries, Eliana is right there to enthusiastically tell him, “Its okay!”

The past month has been many things: hilarious, emotional, eye-opening, precious, refining, thrilling, exhausting.  But above all, it has been a blessing.  I could not be more grateful for these two precious children, thankful for their health and humbled that God entrusted such amazing gifts to Jordan and me.  I would not trade a single day for anything else in the world!

I hope to blog more regularly in the days and weeks ahead as I adjust to our family’s new routine (and hopefully gain more sleep).  There are pictures to be posted, stories to be told, posts to catch up on, and hilarious pregnant moments to share.  But for now, know that the Leinos are having an amazing summer.  Thank you all for your prayers on our behalf as we waiting for Evan’s arrival and the joy you have shared with us since his birth.  More to come soon!

Happy weekend, everyone!  Be sure to check back next week for the delicious details of our foodie weekend.  I’ll enjoy some Georgetown Cupcakes on your behalf.

Nathan Lawrenson Photography – Nate began delving into the world of photography during his extensive stay at Duke Hopsital while his wife recovered from a double-lung transplant, was then treated for cancer and while his daughter (born at 24 weeks gestation) spent the first several months of her life in the NICU.  To say he knows how to capture precious moments on film is a stark understatement.  He took all the pictures seen on our blog banner.  His work is artistic, capturing both the beauty and spirit of the families he photographs.  To learn more about Nate and his inspiring family, visit Confessions of a CF Husband.

So Much Bigger Than The Bunny – Tasha is a mom of 3 (soon-to-be 4) who is absolutely committed to the spiritual growth of her kids.  She is one of the most humble people I know, with capabilities far beyond anything she would ever say herself.  She wrote an innovative 7-week devotional for kids and families about the true meaning of Easter.  Fun, practical and applicable to all ages.  Proceeds from the book go towards funding their Uganda adoption.  I’m telling you – these people are amazing!

Resurrection Songs – Josh is our worship pastor and hands-down, one of the most talented song writers/musicians/vocalists I’ve ever had the pleasure to know.  For real.  He is producing a kids rock album to make Scripture memory easy and fun for kids.  The album compliments So Much Bigger Than The Bunny (written by his wife, Tasha), putting each week’s memory verse verbatim into songs that stick with you.  Jordan has been working with Josh on this project, playing drums and keys for each track.  It has been an absolute blast for him!  This isn’t your typical kids album.  Adults will want to rock out to these tunes as well!  Non-cheesy kids music.  Love it!  Proceeds also go towards their adoption from Uganda.

Tellefsen Custom Portraits – Cathy is like the big sister I never had.  She came into my life at just the perfect season and has since been a source of encouragement, much laughter, and solid advice.  Cathy studied art at Wake Forest University and is an accomplished painter.  Their family traveled the road of child loss nearly 13 years ago when their second daughter, Sarah, fell ill with cancer at 4 months old and passed 5 months later.  During their time at Duke, a photographer from Time magazine captured an intimate picture of Cathy holding her daughter in the cancer unit – a picture she did not receive until after Sarah’s passing.  The image made such a profound impact on my friend that she dedicated herself to capturing such moments of children on canvas for their families.  Her portraits are exquisite, excellently painted with genuine love poured into every brush stroke.  The perfect gift!

From Glimpses To Glory – Beverly was recently described as a combination of Beth Moore and Paula Dean.  So true!  This southern woman oozes love and joy from every pore while having a vibrant, humble walk with God and passionate love for His Word.  From Glimpses To Glory is Beverly’s first book, taking the reader from getting a glimpse of who God made them to be through the journey of seeing the vision fulfilled.  Jam-packed with Biblical truth, eloquence and wisdom, this is an excellent resource for women of all ages who want to grow in their walk with Christ towards being all they were created to be.

Radically Obedient: The Joshua Study – This 9-week study of the Book of Joshua rocked my world last year!  Ailene’s approach to studying the Bible is both refreshing and equipping, sharing valuable insights but leaving much room for God voice to speak to the individual simply through the Word itself.  Radically Obedient equips the reader in how to meditate on Scripture while teaching life-changing lessons from the life of Joshua.  No matter what season of life you are in, this study has something for you!

Happy reading/listening/image-capturing/web-perusing/growing/smiling-despite-this-dreary-weather, everyone!

God has provided so much for our family.  A safe home, a warm bed, food, clothing, medicine to help with aches and discomforts, healthy children, a new baby on the way, white cells.  While I don’t feel my best at all, I’m in far better shape than countless many in our country and around the world.  This too shall pass.  Being physically slowed down for the week, I’ve been able to focus far more during my reading times in the Bible and elsewhere.  Some times the most undesired circumstances can bring about rich, hidden blessings.  Who knew the Book of Numbers had so much to say!

My husband is truly amazing.  He has cared for Eliana and I incredibly well all during one of the busiest work weeks of the year so far.  He sweetly tells me I’m beautiful on my yuckiest days, rubs my ever-cramping feet, and has made many runs to Target for more ginger ale…at all hours of the day.  My daughter is precious.  She seems to understand why Mommy has needed to be on the couch so much, often running over just to give me a hug or lay there with me.  So sweet.  I’m blessed with an wonderful family, both immediate and in-laws.  They are all caring and considerate, praying on my behalf and sending encouraging messages throughout the day.  I’m surrounded by incredible friends.  They are always a delight to be around and can bring a smile to even the most nauseous face.  Friends in every season.  What a blessing!

This may not be the most fabulous week of my life, but it certainly has not been the worst.  My life is not perfect.  However, in the midst of the good, the bad and the mundane, God promises to with me (Deut. 31.8).  He truly is all I need (Phil. 4.19).  Whether we’re at the top of our game or under the weather, enjoying the views from a beautiful mountaintop or trudging through the fog of a dark valley, there is always an opportunity to be thankful.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”  Philippians 4.4

Last week, my Mom came across the most amazing recipe in Country Living that has done just the trick!  Carrot Cupcakes.  To say these tasty morsels are delicious would be a stark understatement.  I’ve enjoyed many a fine carrot cake in my life, but none have ever come close to comparing with the flavor and texture of this recipe: carrot cupcake with golden raisins and chopped nuts (we used pecans instead of walnuts…simply out of preference) covered by a dollop of carrot-infused cream cheese frosting and finished with strips of candied carrot on top.  Oh. My. WORD!  The only phrase that comes close to capturing this decadent morsel is “Dangerously Delicious!”

So the next time you’re in the mood for a satisfying treat, skip the local bakery and whip up a batch of these carrot cupcakes for yourself.  It will certainly be worth it!

(click on the recipe for the full size to print)

Picture this: The tabernacle has finally been completed.  Moses and Aaron are going through the process of anointing and consecrating the tabernacle and the leaders of Israel.  God sets apart the Levites for Himself from among all others in the nation.  He calls them to complete service of Aaron and the tabernacle, to perform priestly duties for the whole congregation of Israel and to care for the tabernacle itself (Numbers 1.50)  In short, the Levites were called to specific service in the place of worshiping God.  The Lord said that they shall be Mine (Numbers 3.12 & 13).

Then comes Chapter 8.  The Lord instructs Moses to cleanse the Levites and have them make offerings before Him that they would be consecrated for their service.  Verse 11 states, “Aaron then shall present the Levites before the Lord as a wave offering from the sons of Israel, that they may qualify to perform the service of the Lord.“  What struck me so powerfully about this passage is this: this tribe had already been called by God to specific duties in the tabernacle.  They had already been called to a priesthood, to serve in unique ways in the sacrifices and worship before God.  YET they still had to cleanse themselves, make offerings (symbolic of confession) and prepare themselves to be qualified to fulfill their role in serving the Lord in the tabernacle.

How tempting would it have been for the Levites to feel a sense of superiority over the nation of Israel?!  How easily could they have felt somewhat entitled to the position given them?  “We’ve been called.  We’ve been given such and such responsibilities in the tabernacle.  We’ve been set apart to serve in this specific way.”  But as verse 11 reminds us – though they had been called, they still had to be qualified to serve the Lord.  This did not reflect on their physical ability to perform the duties assigned to them but on their spiritual condition before God.

As one who serves from the platform with the worship team, this greatly resonated with me.  Countless times in my life, I have heard others say and at times felt within myself, “I know I’ve been called to sing, to lead, to serve on the worship team (or whatever position applies to you)”  This may be valid but it must be taken a step further.  While God does place callings on His people, so often we jump from receiving the call to feeling entitled to that position of service without qualifying ourselves to walk in the path prepared for us.  We focus more on the position we feel obligated to rather than our condition before God.  As I read Numbers 8, I sensed God say to me, “Being called to something and being qualified to walk in that calling are two different things.”  The Levites were called to serve but they still had to act in humility and obedience to cleanse themselves, to confess their sins and to consecrate themselves before the Lord in preparation of that service.  They had to take ownership of their own condition before God rather than proudly assume they were good simply because of their given status.

Thank You, Lord, for this timely reminder!  I pray it be true for Journey’s worship team and for anyone who has a calling of service placed on them (in essence – anyone who calls themselves a Christian.  God has a calling on your life!)  May we walk humbly before the Lord.  May we never disqualify ourselves from the calling He has placed on us because of our own sin, lack of obedience or pride.  Every time we step up on our “platform” (be it a stage, work, your family, any audience, or simply alone before the Creator of all things), may we assess the condition of our heart and bodies to make sure we are qualified to walk in the calling He has placed on our lives.

We have been called.  The question is: are we qualified?

• The warmer weather has allowed Eliana to spend much more time outside and she has loved it!  She wants to be outdoors every chance she gets.  Often her first word in the morning is “outside?”  Such a happy little girl.  Whether she’s flying kites with Daddy, helping Maima in her garden or coloring on the porch in a hula skirt, Eliana has a blast anytime she’s in the sun.

• Leino Studios had a fabulous first week in its new location.  We are so thankful for the new space God provided for Jordan’s business.  Though we are still putting some final decorating touches on the space, Jordan has already enjoyed the benefits of having much more space for all his musical and business needs.  A step forward in every way, we’re excited to see all that is in store for the Studio in this next season.

• Our little girl loves to sing!  Any time music is playing, she’s singing and dancing along.  Maima has been teaching Eliana the words and motions for “Itsy, Bitsy Spider”.  It amazes me to watch her pick up phrases and hand motions so quickly.  I found her trying to get one of her baby dolls to do the motions this past week.  Precious!

• Journey just finished a series on Love.  Boy, has it impacted me!  Over four weeks, our church took an in-depth look into what Scripture says about Love: God’s love, our love for Him, our love for others and our love for ourselves.  I’ve found myself reading through my notes over and again, wanting to listen to the sermons more than once as they have really challenged me to grow and convicted me in areas I certainly need it.  I highly encourage everyone to take the time to listen to the messages.  Since Jesus said that the world will know His disciples by our love, its an area we all could grow in.

• Well the sunshine and an energetic little lady are calling me outside.  Be sure to check back here on Monday as I’ll be sharing the most amazing carrot cupcake recipe I have ever tasted!  Seriously….BEST EVER!  Happy weekend, everyone!

I have the best siblings in the universe.  Growing up with Ian and Corinne was always a laughter-filled adventure.  How truly thankful I am for them both!

This passage never ceases to challenge me.  I’m sure I’ve read it scores of times, but with each time I hear God’s instruction to “choose life”, I’m convicted.  Am I choosing life today?  This world surrounds us all with circumstances and situations – some beyond our control and others completely within our grasp.  We may not always be able to influence what happens to us but we always have the choice of how we handle ourselves through it.  In Deuteronomy, God reminds the nation of Israel that life and death are ever before them.  But it is up to them to choose which one they will walk in!  You can hear God’s loving heart for His people, wanting them to walk in the life set before them and to hold fast to Him in love.  But He will not force it on them.  They must make the choice for themselves.

We all must make the same choice every single day.  Will we walk in the life that God holds out for us?  Will we choose life?  Or will we easily succumb to trials and temptations that so easily abound?  When facing a mountain, will we stand in awe of the God who holds everything together, who is far greater than any obstacle?  Or will we only see a massive barrier between where we are and where we want to go?  Will we see the opportunity for an adventurous climb or crumble beneath the daunting thought of the journey that lies ahead?

Life is an adventure!  God is almighty, great, wondrous and unfathomably loving!  He has set before us life and death, blessing and cursing.  Which one will you choose?  Which will I choose today?  As it says in verse 20, “For the Lord is your life…” I pray that this passage always stays at the forefront of my mind – that I would remember to dwell on His goodness, His salvation, His power in my life rather than the menial trials and tribulations this temporal world may bring.  Today is a new day.  Heed God’s compassionate voice as He invites us all, “Choose Life!”

We spent part of our weekend practicing songs, making sure we knew them inside and out for the services.  It’s always an extra treat for me to hear Jordan play keys at home.  Whether he’s learning a song or creating one of his own, his playing melts my heart every time.  (*insert swoon here)  While he was rehearsing the songs for Uprising, Eliana wanted to be part of it.  I walked into our room to find her standing on his chair, dancing away as Jordan played.  She was beaming ear to ear!  Though she can’t actually play keys yet, she still wanted to help her Daddy in her own special way.  Precious!  I have a feeling Eliana will be creating her own music sooner than we think.

Happy 4th Birthday, Isaac Jordan.  How we love you so.

“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who by the power that enables Him to bring everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like His glorious body.“
Philippians 3:20-21

Answer: toasted coconut marshmallows!  Creamy and indulgently satisfying while light and airy with a hint of tropical goodness.  My how I enjoy this recipe!  Thanks to Ina Garten, these delectable goodies are easy to make and completely worth your while.    I’ve also used her basic recipe to make cinnamon marshmallows before, grinding red hots into a powder and substituting them for sugar.  Any time I’ve made this recipe with kids, they have always been fascinated how such a small amount of liquid whips up into a massive, fluffy cloud.

So go whip up your own batch of Ina’s Toasted Coconut Marshmallows today!  Perhaps they will help make sense of this weather madness.

No, that’s not water nor styling gel in her hair.  This lovely do comes from a whopping handful of mashed potatoes!  In a blink, Eliana’s hand scooped up a fist full of spuds and wiped it all in her hair.  Needless to say, she went straight from the dinner table to the bathtub.  She is one adorable, messy lady!

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(photograph courtesy of NLP)

One passage has stuck with me for days.  It’s a passage that I’m sure I’ve read in the past, but stood out in a new way this time around.  Exodus 33.  Just prior, Moses is on Mount Sinai for 40 days as God gives him the Ten Commandments.  Meanwhile, the nation of Israel grows impatient and quickly forget all God has already done for them.  They build for themselves a golden calf to worship instead.  Both the anger of the Lord and Moses burn against them for this sin and Israel suffers severe consequences for such disobedience.

Thus begins Exodus 33.  The Lord instructs Moses to lead Israel on towards the Promised Land, sending an angel before them to drive out their enemies.  However He says that His presence will not go with them due to the people’s obstinance.  But Moses responds in verse 15 and 16, “If Your presence does not go with us, do not lead us up from here.  For how then can it be known that I have found favor in Your sight, I and Your people?  Is it not by Your going with us, so that we, I and Your people, may be distinguished from all the other people who are upon the face of the earth?”

Think of it!  God was sending Israel on from their wilderness wanderings towards the Promised Land, a land flowing with milk and honey.  He promised an angel to go before them to fight their enemies.  Israel would finally be out of this never-ending desert and arrive at their Promised Land!  If I were Moses, how tempting would it be to get this massive group of complaining, difficult people to their destination and be done with the struggle of leading them?  How eager would I be to move from this place of total dependence and weakness to a land promised full of provision and ease?  For generations, Israel would have heard of the foretold Promised Land.  Would they not be jumping at the chance to get there as soon as possible?

Yet Moses’ response struck me powerfully.  “Lord, if Your presence does not go with us, I would rather stay in the wilderness where You are than go to the Promised Land without You.”  He was far more concerned with being with the Lord in a place of uncertainty than to go on to an easy place without Him.  As recorded in verse 16, he rightfully said that it was the Lord’s presence that made Israel special, that set them apart in the earth.  Nothing of Israel itself was exceptional.  Quite the contrary.  They were a fickle, whiny group of people who would receive miracles and yet crave their former slavery the moment anything got remotely hard.  It was the God of Israel that made this nation exceptional!  It was God’s presence!  When given the choice, Moses emphatically chose to stay in the place of struggle with God’s presence as his guide than to move to a place promised for generations without Him.

Wow!  This passage has given me great pause over the past many days.  Am I more focused on what I want to receive from God or on experiencing His presence in the midst of trials?  What do I crave more – arriving at my “Promised Land” or being in God’s presence even if that means remaining in a wilderness?  Am I defined by my situation on this earth or by my relationship and intimacy with the Living God?  Think of it – the Promised Land was a good place.  After all, it was promised!  But Moses rightfully recognized that no matter the destination, God’s presence along the journey was of paramount importance.  He would rather stay in a barren land with obstinate people and have God’s presence than go to a place of ease and freedom apart from Him.

My hope and prayer is that given the same choice, I would respond as Moses did.  I certainly have not always done so in the past, eagerly awaiting reprieve from seasons of trials and wanderings.  But may Exodus 33 take firm root in my heart, that I would crave God’s presence in my life above anything and everything else.  Lord, I want to be where You are.

The weather in Vero Beach was stunning.  60′s and sunny.  Quite a relief from the frigid winter we’ve had in Raleigh.  Despite the chilly winds, we took Eliana to the boardwalk to run to heart’s content and see the ocean.  She had a blast!  Click to view slideshow.

Jordan is a godly man.  He loves Jesus and seeks to be more like Him each day.  He respects the Word and does his best to live accordingly.  Always growing, Jordan does not see faith as a one-time event but a lifetime’s journey to know Christ more.  He seeks to live in full obedience to God, willing to take steps of faith when called to and never assumes that he has arrived.  He desires to honor God in who he is and all he does, ever ready to learn.  He is certainly not perfect, but he earnestly desires to live a life pleasing to his Savior.

Jordan is humble.  His gifts and abilities seem endless, yet he boasts in none of them.  He works hard, has successfully built a business from concept to reality, provides for his family well, plays countless instruments on a professional level, sings with strength and ease, writes incredible songs, always has our best interests at heart and yet, he seeks no praise for any of it.  He seeks godly counsel without presuming to know everything himself and is ever discerning with whatever information comes his way.  Always learning, always striving to grow, always working to be excellent…simply to be the best steward of the life he’s been given.

Jordan is strong.  Strong in heart, body and mind.  There is not a frail bone in his body.  He faces obstacles with vigor, uncertainty with courage, problems with determination and wisdom.  He never quits, never makes excuses, never settles for anything less than his best.  With Jordan, I always feel safe and secure.

Jordan is wise.  He thinks before he speaks and has the amazing ability to practically view a situation through both perspectives before making his own assessment.  He does not jump into decisions blindly but also has the courage to take great steps of faith when God calls him to it.  He seeks the Lord’s perspective through prayer and reading the Scriptures.  Jordan is a man of self-control, discipline, and deep wisdom.  He can see past the external to the true root of an issue.  He does not get hung up on a person’s behavior but rather can see through to the cause of those behaviors…and loves that person right where they are at.  When a tough decision faces him, he does not cower under its weight but rises to face it.  His thoughts are the first I seek in everything because I know he’ll always give wise advice.

Jordan is handsome.  I mean goodness…have you seen those gorgeous brown eyes and bright smile?!  Tall, dark and handsome.  And he’s all mine… 

Jordan is gracious.  Quick to forgive and not one to hold a grudge, he does not air out negative opinions or the dirty laundry of others.  He would rather bite his tongue and take certain info to the grave than unjustly tear someone down with his words.  He does not always agree with people, but he always shows respect to them.  Jordan speaks the truth with love.  He has this incredible ability to say hard truths to someone – even call out sin in their life – and do it in such a way that they feel encouraged to grow, supported and better for having heard it.  Blows me away.  He does not give in to inflamed situations but rather remains calm in the midst of turmoil.  He always hopes the best for others.

Jordan loves selflessly.  He is a loving husband.  He pursued me for three years before we were married and has never stopped.  He knows all the ugliest parts of me & not only loves me in spite of them – he loves me in midst of them.  Not a day goes by when he does not say and demonstrate his love for me.  He is gentle in my weakness, patient in my craziness and fills my heart with laughter every single day.  Even when I’m worn down, he makes me feel beautiful.  He works hard every day so that I can be a stay-at-home mom for our family.  He is absolutely my best friend.

Jordan has been an amazing father to our children.  His hugs have no limit, his words of affirmation have no bounds.  With Isaac, he always brought peace and comfort.  With Eliana, he is the joy in her eyes.  She absolutely lights up every time she’s with him.  He is not too proud to get on the floor and play with Eliana on her level, to meet her silliness with hearty laughter and smiles.  Even on his busiest work days, he is never too busy to stop and scoop her up in his arms for a hug.  A man of character, I hope my sons grow to be like him and the standard I hope my daughters measure all other men against.  I am proud and humbled that he is the father of my children.  What a blessing!

This only scratches the surface of who Jordan is and all I love about him.  Were I to scribe it all, you would not have time enough to read it.  He is my husband, my confidant, my companion, my lover, father of my children, my soul mate,my best friend.  He holds my heart and never will I take it back from him.  It is safe with him.  Now and always, Jordan Leino is my Valentine.

You Are Faithful by Hillsong

Lord of all the earth
how You care for me
You have made me
You will save and carry me always

You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength

Lord, You are my God
I rely on You
I put my hope in things not seen
Your promises all true

Always You’re with me
Your hand will lift me
My trust is in Your hands

You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength

In honor of this deliciousness, here’s a recipe for chocolate chip meringues for your enjoyment.  You can use any size chip but I prefer mini morsels or Andes mint chips.  (The original recipe bakes the meringues at 300°F but I’ve found 310° works better for our oven.)  Eliana loves to watch the clear egg whites whip up in a frenzy into thick, glossy goodness.

So grab your bakers’ hat, your favorite apron, your sweet tooth and bake away!

That said, Jordan has been amazing on this day for as long as I’ve known him.  From grand occasions to celebrating in sweet, simple ways, he has a knack for romance.  I am truly blessed and continually grateful for him.  Whether its February 14th or some obscure day anytime year round, he never ceases to show me love and value as his wife.  It is a gift I never knew possible and one I do not take for granted.  I am most fortunate to be Jordan Leino’s soulmate.

Beyond the holiday festivities, the subject of love has been in the forefront of my mind of late.  Wrapping my brain around God’s love, applying it to my life (not just knowing about it), and learning more how to live out His love in my own life.  He has taught me much but heaven knows, I still have a long way to go.  This past Sunday, Pastor Jimmy began a 4-week series on Love at Journey Church.  His sermon focused solely on God’s love for us.  It was saturated with Truth – that God is love, He pursued us before we even knew we needed pursuing, and NOTHING can separate us from His love.  Nothing!  He closed with a passage from Romans that has been a rock for me through the ups and downs of my life: Romans 8.38-39

“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

This passage continues to amaze and challenge me.  Is it even possible to wrap one’s mind around the vast expanse of this love?  Regardless of my circumstances, do I remain convinced His love remains unlimited and unchanging?  Blows my mind.  A simple song by Kathryn Scott captures these verses so beautifully: I Belong.  It has been playing in my mind all week.  I find myself waking to its melody and humming its lyrics as I go about my day.   It reminds me of the truth in Romans 8 – that nothing can take me from God’s great love.  Click the link below to hear I Belong.  This song has blessed my heart; perhaps it will do the same for you today.

I Belong by Kathryn Scott

So close!  Try putting the stroller upright, sweet girl.

Much better! 

Yesterday’s sunny and somewhat warm weather allowed us to have a nice walk around the neighborhood.  Of course, Eliana brought her baby doll along.  She was power walking with that doll!

Work it, girl!

Like any big sister in training, she was sure to check how her “baby” was doing once we reached the clubhouse.

No doubt about it – Eliana Faith is going to be one amazing big sister!

Cute, curious & confident.  Sweet, stunning & silly.  Friendly, feisty & fabulous.

That’s my girl!

One such friend stands out in my mind today.  I first knew of her casually during my time at Liberty University.  She was the brown-eyed girl who always wore a smile.  Everyone who knew her would comment on how amazing she was anytime her name came up in conversation.  But it wasn’t until the fall of 2007 that our paths would divinely collide and begin what has grown into a sweet friendship.  A friendship that I’m honestly humbled and overwhelmed to have.

Our story begins in September 2007.  It was the month following Isaac’s death – a time when we were still shell-shocked and perhaps numb from all that had occurred during the 6 months prior.  A time when we were surrounded by more love and support than I ever imagined possible by people we knew well and others who only knew of us through our blog.  September was a month of learning a new “normal” and figuring out how life was supposed to move on as a family of two again.  It was a time when God carried us moment by moment.

I received an email from an old acquaintance at Liberty – Nathan Lawrenson.  He had served on one of the ministry teams at the same time as Jordan and I.  All I remembered of Nathan was his incredible singing voice, constant humor, and that he had married the brown-eyed girl everyone spoke so fondly of during my time at LU.  I read on to learn that he and his wife, Tricia, lived in North Carolina’s Outer Banks where he was a worship pastor and had just learned through a mutual friend that we had just lost Isaac.  His condolences were so sincere.  He wrote that Tricia had cystic fibrosis and they would soon be traveling to Duke to begin the process of qualifying her for a necessary double lung transplant.  With Duke being a mere 40 minutes from us, they hoped to attend October’s First Wednesday service at the church where Jordan then worked and catch up with us a bit.

At that next month’s First Wednesday, we saw Nathan and Tricia.  It was a wonderful service and we were so excited to catch up with these fellow LU alumni afterwards.  I remember first seeing them after the service ended.  They looked shell-shocked and tired.  All I knew is they had arrived at the church immediately following a full day of tests and doctors appointments at Duke.  With the late hour and their apparent fatigue, we made plans to postpone our catching-up date for the next time they were in town – just a week or two later.

That following visit, we met up at Coldstone for some delicious creamy calories to catch up with each other.  And it was that day that a beautiful journey in friendship began with the lovely brown-eyed girl named Tricia.  We reminisced over days at Liberty and memories from serving on ministry teams.  We laughed as we realized just how many mutual friends we had from LU.  We shared some of our story with the Lawrensons and how we were coping with the sudden change in our family.  And then they caught us up with their lives, explaining why they looked so shell-shocked at the service a few weeks prior.

Tricia’s CF had deteriorated her lungs to the point of now needing to qualify for a double-lung transplant.  It would be a rigorous process of tests, strict diets, and strong medication to ready her body for the new lungs should they become available in time.  Their visit at Duke had been going smoothly until they learned shocking news that would forever change the course of their lives.  Tricia was pregnant!  While most cases of pregnancy begin with pure elation, theirs was a mix of shock, awe and fear.  Terminating the pregnancy was NOT an option as they knew every child is a gift from God.  But how could Tricia now qualify for the lungs she was needing with increasing severity?  The drugs necessary would harm the baby.  Would her body even be able to carry the baby to term, let alone survive a full pregnancy and delivery?  They were smack in the middle of a rock and a hard place.  This precious couple was facing impossible odds, however in the midst of the madness, had a peace about them that could only be explained by their faith in Jesus.  I was so amazed by Tricia that day.  Her very life was in jeopardy, yet she was so full of joy and gratitude for God’s working in her life.  All the while, they kept asking how they could pray for us in our time of grieving!  They were facing the impossible but were so focused on how they could still be God’s hands and feet to others.  I left that afternoon completely humbled and amazed by this sweet couple, particularly Tricia’s grace and genuine love despite her circumstances.

This truly is only the beginning of their remarkable story of faith and overcoming insurmountable odds by the grace and power of God.  Nathan gives a beautiful snapshot of their life since that October here on his blog.  Please read it! My words will not do it justice.  Even during our many visits to the hospital as Tricia’s health quickly declined, both she and Nathan would always ask how we were doing and how they could pray on our behalf.  Since that day at Coldstone, my friendship with Tricia has grown into one I truly treasure.  Every time I’m with her, I’m deeply humbled and challenged by her example to surrender my life more fully to Christ.  She faces so many obstacles each day.  She has nearly every reason to live a selfish, bitter or complacent life.  Yet Tricia joyfully lives out the love of Jesus in each day, always seeking ways to serve others and display Him more.  And to this very day, anytime we are with this precious couple, they still ask how they can serve and pray for us.  Amazing.

Words completely fail me to describe the impact they both have had on my life.  When I think of women I want to be more like, Tricia is always on that list.  It is a joy and privilege to call her friend.  She has recently begun blogging again – Faith, Hope & Lovebugs.  I strongly encourage everyone to read it!  You’ll fall in love with this sweet family as she both inspires and challenges you through the example of her own life and her written words.  There are many beautiful things about Tricia (beyond the fact that she’s gorgeous).  Truly beautiful in every way.  But the one that stands out to me most: she never thinks of herself as inspiring or exceptional.  Rather, she simply thanks God for the gift of every new day she’s given and out of that gratitude and love for Jesus, strives to live Him out however she can.  She loves boldly, serves tirelessly, walks humbly and seeks to better the lives of every one around her.

Tricia lives every moment on purpose and because of it, my life will never be the same.

Then Thursday night came.  The whole drive to pick up Jordan from teaching had me, once again, in tears.  Being the genius that I am, I decided to play a Kathryn Scott song that has me weepy on a sanguine day.  Eliana must have been wondering, “what the heck is wrong with my mother?!”  She simply laughed and sang her heart away all the while.  Our trek from Jordan’s office to Journey for worship band rehearsal had thankfully less tears with precious encouragement coming from my wonderful husband (also probably wondering “what the heck is wrong with my wife?!”)

As the band set up and prepped for rehearsal, I saw a dear friend of mine.  Within moments, we both were sharing tears and our struggles from the week.  Though we live quite a distance apart, we both had been experiencing similar emotions and wrestling with similar heartaches from our own experiences and on behalf of mutual friends.  We cried, we expressed our own confusion in ourselves and not having the answers to the questions that perplexed us.  We laughed at our hysteria and how grateful we are for husbands who love us in spite of us.

Then we were able to pray together.  What a gift it was to pray together to the God who hears, even while not having all the answers ourselves.  I’m so grateful for friendships that bear burdens, rejoice together and regardless of current circumstances, go with you before the Throne.  God worked through those few moments together with this wonderful woman to bring peace amidst my madness and to encourage my hormonal heart.

The rest of rehearsal was a beautiful time for me, relishing in the truth of the lyrics we sang and surrounded by incredible music played by people who genuinely love their Savior.  By evening’s end, I left encouraged and at peace.  Granted, I still feel the weight of concern for friends facing trying times.  But God had worked through my steadfast husband, a dear friend, and the songs we rehearsed as a soothing balm on my emotional, weary heart.  Will I cry again tomorrow?  Probably.  After all, I am still quite pregnant.  But I’ll be able to laugh at myself in the midst of the raging emotions and confusing times, knowing that ultimately God still holds my whole world in His hands and that I am not alone.  Thank you, Lord, for all the ways you work in my life.  Even in my weakest moment, Your strength shines all the more.

In many ways, I find myself in a similar place as when I wrote the post Seasons.  Its a time of wondering, of wrestling, of balancing life’s circumstances on this fallen planet with the Truth of God’s Word and His promises.

My quad group (four ladies reading through the Bible in a year together) just finished the book of Job yesterday.  How timely!  After chapter upon chapter of Job’s laments and his friends’ off-based judgments, God finally speaks and sets the record straight.  Interestingly, He never gives the reason for His actions.  He simply reminds Job of who He is and that “whatever is under the whole heaven is Mine.” (Job 41.11)   Though Job’s circumstances did not immediately change, his confession certainly did upon seeing who God is.  “I know that You can do all things, and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted…I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear; but now my eye sees You.” (Job 42.2, 5)

What struck me most of all was that last statement: I have heard of You but now I see You.  Job had known of God in the blessed times, but it was in the times of deep trial that he saw God Himself.  Job’s perspective shifted from the difficulty of his circumstances to God’s magnitude above and amidst it all.  This did not diminish the severity of what Job had experienced.  Rather it allowed him a greater perspective of who God was in spite of them.  Though Job’s life had been turned upside down, God who loved him remained sovereign and supreme.  Through this dark valley, Job received the greatest gift of all: he gained personal knowledge of the Almighty for himself.

The Book of Job closes with beautiful restoration as verse 12 records, “The Lord blessed the latter days of Job more than his beginning.”  I can’t help but wonder how much more Job valued all he was given after loosing everything.  Each possession and privilege – a blessing.  Each new child born – a gift.  Such a treasured perspective that could only be gained from loosing it all.  And interestingly enough, there is no record that Job ever knew the original why to his suffering.  Nevertheless he gained a priceless gift in the midst.

I’m sure I’ll always grapple with life’s hard circumstances, always struggle with wondering why.  But in the not knowing, I pray that I’ll be able to remember God reigns supreme above it all and that all things allowed to occur can be worked out for my good according to His purpose of conforming my life to the likeness of Christ (Romans 8.28-29).  And perhaps in looking back on life’s mountaintops and deep valleys, I’ll be able to see all the hidden treasures therein.  It may not remove the real pain of challenging times but it will provide His peace that surpasses all understanding.

By Saturday night, I had a baking itch that I simply could not scratch.  So with the necessary ingredients assembled, I grabbed my favorite apron and got to work.  20 minutes later, this lovely pie emerged from the oven:

Creamy pineapple filling topped with fluffy meringue.  Mmm.  My first attempt at pie – a success!  Simple and scrumptious.  There’s a very strong chance I’ll be baking this one again.

Eliana Faith is 18 months old today!  Its hard to believe that my sweet baby girl is already a year and a half old.  In a blink she’s gone from a wee bundle in my arms to a running, talking, playful, singing, dancing, giggling little lady.  This little girl talks up a storm!  Lately she likes to count to six.  The words aren’t completely formed but she makes the vowels sounds in order every time with a celebratory “Wee!” when she’s done.  So cute!  Curious about absolutely everything, Eliana’s recent fascinations are putting puzzles together and drawing.

We’re so excited to see her interact with her brother this summer as she’s quite a nurturing little lady.  She loves to rock her baby dolls, “feed” them, and push them in their strollers.  At church, she’s often found bringing toys to the crying kids in her nursery class and chatting it up with everyone.  So sweet!

Eliana received a play car for Christmas and she loves to give her dolls a ride on her car.  With a playful “Go!” she sends them flying across the room.  (We’re still working on the gentle aspect of it all.)

Little Miss is quite an active lady!  She would rather walk than be carried, run than walk, and push her stroller instead of riding in it.  Its humorous to see her independence already.  Once she’s shown how to do something, there’s no doubt that she wants to do it herself.

A favorite place to play for Eliana is in our van.  She laughs every time she pretends to drive!  It entertains her for quite some time, standing at the steering wheel and trying to turn it with all her might.  Its amazing how much kids observe at such a young age.  With keys in hand, she’ll try to put the correct key in the ignition all by her self and sings away during her “drive”.  The only challenge is when its time to leave the drivers’ seat and go back in her car seat for an actual drive.  She just wants to play!

Eliana Faith, you are a beautiful gift from God!  We immediately fell in love with you the moment we met and that love has only grown by leaps and bounds ever since.  You are sweet, intelligent, strong, beautiful and kind.  Your hugs and kisses always melt our hearts and your smile lights up any room.  We are so thankful that God allowed us to be your parents.  You are a blessing through and through.  We are proud of you, sweet girl, and are so excited to see all that lies ahead for you.  Happy 18 Months, Eliana!  What wonderful things are in store for you next!

Jordan and I have a great routine with Eliana after dinnertime.  One of us does her bath and gets her ready for bed while the other cleans the kitchen/family room.  We swap out day-to-day and it has really worked well for us.  By 8 pm each night, we have a happy sleeping girl and a clean apartment to relax in.  Fabulous!  Tuesday night found me on bath duty with Jordan recovering the kitchen from dinner.  Eliana was adorable as always, splashing and giggling to her heart’s content while singing a random song during her bath.  Once she was scrubbed and near pruned, I got her ready for bed: lotion, jammies, clean teeth, brushed and dried hair.  The result – a happy, sparkly little lady!  After hugs, kisses and snuggles, Jordan prayed over her in her room and laid her down to sleep.  A lovely end to an enjoyable evening.

Then Wednesday morning came.  I left the apartment early to get to Chapel Hill for a full day of Six Sigma training, leaving Jordan on child duty for the day.  Class was just beginning as I received the following text from Jordan:

“Um…that was disgusting.  Just imagine picking up a newly wakened child who is bawling, to find her entire nighty soaked and smelling like poop.  So I go to change her and…there’s no diaper!  Just poop and pee everywhere!  Let’s just say she just had a bath.”

I could not contain my laughter!  Poor Jordan…what a way to start the day!  Hysterical child who wakes to find herself covered in nastiness.  I chuckled as I thought that he had forgotten to put her diaper on the night before.  No wait…I got her dressed last night.  She must have taken it off.  No wait…he said there was no diaper.  There was NO diaper.  I FORGOT TO DIAPER MY OWN CHILD!!!  This fiasco was completely MY fault!!  I know I’ve been forgetful lately but really?!?!  What parent forgets to diaper their un-pottytrained child before bed?!  Or ever?!?!!!  REALLY?!?!!!!

The next hour consisted of random spurts of laughter blanketed heavily by mortification and many apology texts to Jordan.  Thankfully he had a great sense of humor about it.  Of course, I will be trying to live this down for the next decade or lifetime or so.  *sigh*  I’ve had pregnant brain before but this is ridiculous!  It is beyond humiliating but way too hilarious to keep to myself.  So if you’re ever having a forgetful day or find yourself having a pregnant moment, just smile and say, “At least I didn’t pull a Patience!”

There are many big things I’m thankful for: Jesus, my husband, my children, family, church, our home, health, friendships.  Yet there are a multitude of little things I am absolutely grateful for as well.  Here are but a few:

After knowing him for 8 years, Jordan still gives me butterflies.  His hugs always make a crazy moment instantly fill with peace.  His music.  His ability to bring out the best in everyone around him.  Eliana’s random, unsolicited hugs and kisses.  Her laughter.  Her ability to breathe and eat and grow on her own.  White cells.  How nearly every conversation with my mom and sister somehow revolve around delicious food in some way or another.  The ability to bear children.  Warm blankets.  The Bible.  Crème brûlée.  Apple’s genius bar.  UNC Hospital’s PICU and commitment to excellence.  My brother’s creativity and stories (seriously, he has the ability to develop characters like no one else!).  Clean running water.  No matter the weekend nor the topic, every Sunday at Journey Church leaves me challenged, encouraged and changed in my walk with Christ.  Blackberry Cabernet sorbet by Ciao Bella.  Hot showers.  Jordan’s laugh.  My mom’s spunk, wisdom and example of trusting God in every circumstance.  Life Group.  Quad group.  The ability to read, write and sing.  My husband continues to love and serve me despite all my faults and failings.  Photographs.  After 5 years of marriage, Jordan and I still find ourselves laughing together daily.  How God can redeem and restore anything for His glory.  His faithfulness.  Coffee.  Scarves.  Journey’s worship team.  Relationships that inspire and challenge me.  Eliana’s awesome dance moves every time the theme song to VeggieTales plays.  A safe, working vehicle.  Snug socks.  Jordan’s humor, work ethic and wisdom.  Heat and air conditioning.  God’s provision and growth to Leino Studios.  Taste buds.  Eye sight.  Sunshine.  God’s ability to turn trials into triumphs.  2007.  2009.  Heck, every year that I’ve been given!  Life.

These are but a few of the million little things I’m thankful for.  What little things are you grateful for today?

For me, this week has both crept and flown.  Battle of the Sinuses for the past two days has rendered me feeling somewhat unproductive and wanting to just crawl in bed for the day and sleep.  On the other hand, life’s to-do’s, meetings, caring for my baby girl who is under the weather again, keeping up with my reading plan (more on that later) has made the days since Sunday seem to race by.  Quite a funny place to be – feeling both lazy and über productive.  Hmm.

So Happy Hump Day, everyone!  Whether today is the marker of getting through or time seeming to escape your grasp, my hope for us all is that we would remember this above all: God’s mercies for us are new at the break of every dawn. (Lamentations 3.22-24)  Even on a Hump Day.

During the time of response in worship, we sang a new song: You Are Good by Gateway Worship.  Its been around for a little while but this was first time our church sang it together as one.  A simple song, it declares God’s goodness above and beyond everything.  In preparing for the song, God directed me to a beautiful passage in Psalms that vividly describes the magnitude of His love and faithfulness.

Psalm 36.5-9:

⁵Your lovingkindness, O LORD, extends to the heavens,
Your faithfulness reaches to the skies.
⁶Your righteousness is like the mountains of God;
Your judgments are like a great deep
O LORD, You preserve man and beast.
⁷How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God!
And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Your wings.
⁸They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house;
And You give them to drink of the river of Your delights.
⁹For with You is the fountain of life;
In Your light we see light.

His love exceeds the heavens.  His righteousness is strong as mighty mountains.  His judgments stretch beyond the deep.  How wonderful You are, o God!  No matter my circumstance, Your strength is ever-ready, always prevailing.  You are so good.  Your mercy is forever!

This pregnancy has been quite different than my previous prenatal journeys.  For one, I’ve experienced nearly no nausea (thank You, Jesus!) which is a far cry from the others.  I was always on the verge of puking throughout my first two.  With nausea next to nil and migraines occurring no more than usual, this physically has been a much easier pregnancy so far.  It seems my hormones have made up for the lack of sickness though as I’ve been very emotional since day one.  Poor Jordan.  I can be laughing one moment and then uncontrollably weeping the next.  Definitely moody as well.  Jordan, you are the most patient man!  Thank you for loving me in spite of me and for finding humor in my randomness.  You are more than wonderful.

As far as memory goes, it seems the brain dies just a bit more with each pregnancy.  That’s how it feels anyways.  I’ve forgotten names of people I’ve known for years (30 minutes into talking with them!), put the cutting board away in the fridge – twice, asked Jordan the same question 5 times in a row without realizing it, and searched fervently for keys that I was holding IN MY HAND.  Goodness.  My family has certainly enjoyed much entertainment on account of my forgetfulness.  Not that it makes it any easier.  To be honest, I just feel stupid during those moments but my sweet husband never makes fun of my absent-mindedness.  Lord, seriously bless him!

Above all the changes, discomforts, quirks and emotions, this new child is a gift!  This growing life has taught me much about trusting God’s will and provision.  I’m fully aware that God is the One who ultimately places children in their mother’s wombs and that He has different journeys for different women.  To simply be pregnant is a privilege, one for which I am truly grateful.  Since learning at last week’s ultrasound that we were having a healthy baby boy, I’ve experienced waves of emotions.  A son!  We’re having a baby boy whose organs are all forming correctly!  It still brings tears to my eyes knowing we’ve been given another opportunity to love and parent a sweet boy.  While we are quite far from having a name picked out (QUITE far), I’m so eager to meet our son face-to-face in a few months’ time.  Will he have his daddy’s rich brown eyes?  Will he have red hair like his brother or bright green eyes like his grandparents?  I can hardly wait!

20 weeks down.  20 weeks to go.  Lord, thank You for growing this precious child in me thus far.  Please continue to mold him physically and even emotionally to be a strong champion for You once he’s here.  Thank you all who read our blog for your prayers on our behalf.  What a blessing.

Now I’m off to get out all of my maternity clothes as life is about to get much, much larger….

Eliana Faith has taken an adorable interest in prayer lately.  Our family always joins hands to pray before every meal, thanking God for the food He has provided and the home to eat it in.  When we first started holding hands with her for the prayer, she would just stare at us with the most peculiar, inquisitive stare.  But for the past week, she’s the one taking initiative.  Eliana now reaches out to hold our hands several times throughout each meal, bowing her head with a smile and saying a cheery, “A-Ben!”  Precious as can be!

Of course, then its back to eating as usual!

I have a new obsession.  Georgetown Cupcakes is its name.  For years, I have heard of these delectable delights but never made it into their store to try one.  This weekend, everything changed.  One simple bite and all my preconceived skeptical ideas of gourmet cupcakes faded forever.  Perfectly sized with the ideal ratio of moist cupcake to creamy frosting.  I mean really – Strawberry Champagne cupcake with a chocolate ganache core?  Come on!  ‘Tis a lovely bite.  Its now official.  Every time I’m in DC to visit my sister and brother-in-law, Georgetown Cupcakes will be part of the trip.  Yum…..

Of all the passages Jimmy read that morning, one has stuck fast with me.  It really hit home the moment I first heard it and continues to challenge me every time I’ve read it since.

Jeremiah 9.23-24  “This is what the LORD says: ‘Let not the wise boast of their wisdom or the strong boast of their strength or the rich boast of their riches, but let the one who boasts boast about this: that they have the understanding to know Me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,’ declares the LORD.”

Boast not in who you are nor what you do nor whatever you have.  Boast in the Lord!  Boast in knowing Him who is kind, just and righteous.  How many times have I so easily slipped in finding confidence and security in my mere earthly situation – all of which is only mine by the grace and generosity of God!  The Lord delights in showing kindness.  He is the embodiment of justice.  He alone is fully righteous. Lord, I’m sorry for all the million times I have rested and bragged in myself.  All I have and anything of merit found within me is only from You and You alone.  May my boast ever and always be in You.

“…let the one who boasts boast about this: that they have the understanding to know Me, that I am the LORD…”

January’s issue does not disappoint!  I tried my first January recipe last night: mac & cheese soup.  The name intrigued from the get-go.  Our family devours mac & cheese, but the butter and excessive flour always leaves me feeling guilty afterwards and hesitant to make it again.  But each time, the call to cheesy goodness prevails.  As I read the words, “cut the calories in half”, I knew I had to give this recipe a try.

Oh my word.  This soup is SCRUMPTIOUS!  It completely satisfies in the cheesy department with full-bodied flavor coming from the aromatics and chicken broth.  Did I mention there’s a full serving of carrots & celery in every pot?  My hesitant husband (“it won’t taste like watered-down mac & cheese, will it?”) devoured three bowls!  The soup itself has no – I repeat NO – salt in it.  This soup is comforting, filling, jam-packed with flavor and whips up in only 20 minutes!  We Leinos will certainly be enjoying this recipe again and again.

So for all the cheese lovers out there, you’ve got to try this!

To my delight, Eliana loves to hang in the kitchen anytime I’m cooking.  So following the wonderful example from my Mom, she has become my little kitchen helper.  It’s hilarious to see her in my apron.  Her favorite things to do are practice whisking in a bowl and help pour ingredients into the mixing bowl.  She’s adorable!  During breakfast, she gets all giddy to watch us scramble eggs…and of course, eat them.  We made sugar cookies on Christmas Day.  Eliana did a great job pounding the mess out of her dough and cutting out shapes.  I’m so curious to see what type of palate she’ll develop as she grows up.  She certainly is the cutest chef in the making.

Thank you all for your prayers on our behalf!  Relief and joy only scratch the surface of what we’re feeling right now.  After the sonographer spent 45 minutes measuring and looking at every tiny inch of our little fella, the doctor came in casually to say, “Well everything looks great!  I’ve been through all the footage and see nothing that would give me cause for concern.  You’re having a healthy baby boy.  Any questions?”

That was it!  No “brace yourself” conversations, no sitting down and going over details.  Just “Looks good!”  WHAT A GIFT!  As soon as I heard, “it’s a boy” during the exam, my heart skipped a bit.  We’ve been blessed with a healthy girl but would we be able to have a son who was healthy?  Praise be to God Almighty for His kindness and favor!

So come this June, we’ll be a family of four.  Dad, Mom, Eliana & Little Mister.  Now the epic name search begins…

Please join us in praying for the appointment: for our bundle-o-joy to cooperate w/the ultrasound to examine all the organs & such, for peace of mind during the appointment, and for a healthy report.

AND!  If our baby cooperates, we’ll be able to learn whether we’re having a BOY or a GIRL!!!!  I have a hunch.  What’s your vote???

Stay tuned…

1. He Saw Me

2. Charlie Baer

3. Blue Steel

4. Speaking Engagements

5. The Gift of 24 Weeks

6. Comfort (Part One and Two)

7. Family Pictures at Duke Gardens

8. Officially Official

9. Whirlwind of a Summer

10. Beauty For Ashes

This week has not gone as planned.

Sunday began with NO Christmas gifts purchased yet.  (well, I take that back.  Jordan had bought a gift for me, but as far as my gift-getting responsibilities – nada)  Church was AMAZING!  Our pastor, Jimmy Carroll, preached a strong sermon focused solely on celebrating and exalting Jesus.  Seriously, its worth your time to watch it.

Sunday also brought the beginning of a nasty stomach bug that slowly overtook our entire family.  Poor Eliana got the bug first, followed by myself and finally taking out Jordan.  It even took out my mom and brother who live nearby.  From Sunday through Wednesday night, the Leino family was down for the count. Jordan was a CHAMP and did a bulk of the shopping before the bug sent him to bed (and as you know from earlier, this hardly EVER happens).  By Thursday morning, we were all well enough to venture out to finish the shopping, raid the grocery store and recover the apartment from its former invalid-ridden state.  Well, we hoped to do so anyway.  As of 8 o’clock tonight, the presents have all been bought and wrapped.  That’s it.  No grocery shopping done.  No prep-cooking completed.  The apartment is….better but not great.  Christmas cards will have to wait for 2011.  And I haven’t even begun to prep for our trip to the mountains on Monday.  Last week’s Corolla debacle has reduced us back to one vehicle so I’m home with my precious little girl while Jordan practices w/the Journey worship team for tomorrow’s Christmas Eve services.  In short, this week has felt more like chaos than Christmas.  Tonight has found me frazzled, overwhelmed by lack of checks on my to-do list.

Getting tired of my pity-party yet?  God certainly was.  As the evening has wound down, I’ve sensed Him wanting to bring comfort and ease into the midst of my self-imposed madness.  My heart began to still as I felt His reminder, “This season is not about your to-do list, your boeuf bourguignon, your perfectly clean apartment, your ducks standing all in a row.  Rest in knowing it’s not about all you have to do.  It’s about all I’ve already done!  Perhaps I allowed sickness to hit your family for a few days to make you slow down and simplify.  Whatever doesn’t get “done” won’t matter in the end.  What matters is Jesus came for YOU.  He died for YOU.  He rose from the grave, victorious over sin and death for YOU.  Relish in that.  Rest in that.  Remove your chaos from what Christmas is really all about: love, sacrifice, humility, My pursuit of humanity’s heart, and above all – Jesus.”

So here I sit, peace now replacing my previous frenetic state.  Lord, thank You for your continued patience with me and Your gentle calls back to Your heart.  Yes, I’ll do what I can to finish preparations for this weekend, but the task won’t drive me as it was before.  Its humbling to be this age and still finding myself in need of such a reminder.  But oh, how grateful I am He never tires in giving it.

May you be surrounded by the peace that I so desperately needed…and God so graciously gave.  May you rest in the true heart of Christmas rather than be caught up in the tempting chaos we so easily create around it.  Above all, may your heart and mind be filled in knowing Jesus came out of His limitless love for YOU.  Not you as in humanity in general, though that is true.  He laid aside His divine deity to come in human form for you specifically.  For YOU, you.

Merry Almost Christmas, everyone!  Time to get back to cleaning…

Eliana seems to be getting the “big sister bug”.  Over the past few weeks, she has really taken to carrying baby dolls around, rocking them while singing “baby, baby”.  It completely melts my heart when she pushes her doll in a small stroller or feed her a bottle.  So precious!  While she doesn’t fully understand the concept of becoming a big sister or new baby coming, I have a feeling she’ll do just fine.